Job

I understand exactly where Job was coming from. There comes a point in reality where you really want the question asked... what's going on Lord?

I'm having a really rough trot. I mean really bad. From relationship breakdowns, to work problems, to youth group issues, suddenly my health is a problem, and finally there is a swelling of unappreciation dwelling in the abode.

Sometimes I need to escape... I used to escape with computer games when I was younger... I hated what I became because of it... obsessive with this little world with guns and bombs and strategy... Counterstrike - it destroys the inner child. I pulled myself out of that - and escaped with friends... but now it is just that much harder to see friends, and friends are no longer where you are each day - and it takes lots of effort to arrange a day a month in advance.

Sometimes I need to escape. But my life has changed and I haven't changed with it. How do you escape - and where do you escape to? There is much still left for me to learn.

Wisdom in weakness: Where the Lord calls me to be is where I will be. What the Lord asks me to endure, I will do so. For the Lord is a good God, who does not delight in our sufferings. The Lord is a God who does not promise a palace to those who are his... but a whip. It is for the Lord's sake and the Lord's glory alone that I endure - amen.