ground less trodden.

Hello Blog!

It has been a while since we have spoken, but I am back.

One of the good things about not having blogged for a while is that no-one is likely to read this. The reality however, is that I really wish that I could scream and be heard...

It has been a really rough couple of months. I suffer from a fairly serious sleep condition, which has been good for the last week - but even then I am certain it is a temporary reprieve. I just cannot fall asleep. I've done this for days in a row; and yeah - least to say, it affects me in particularly not so good fashion. Most doctors are putting it down to stress, I'm not as convinced.

Bronni and I have broken up - I'm not really sure why we fell out of love. I'm not really sure what happened. Things went from fantastic to crap in a a very short period of time - and then we struggled in a never ending spiral for a while - and yeah - what happened? I don't know. I wish I did, and I wish I had of been able to fix it.

I'm just feeling crap at the moment. I'm feeling miles away from a reality. I'm far from happy Mick that most people know and at least like to some extent - I feel like I have given so much of me, that I struggle to know who Mick is anymore. What has consumed me is a hole of nothingness. A pit from which I feel very limited opportunity to escape.

My life which made sense has been rocked - by lots of illogical, and misrepresented facts which cannot be understood, but cannot be ignored. The whirring continues, as will the solice...

When were you returning Lord?