What sparks joy when you are short of it.

What can spark joy when you aren't seeing much of it? people - and more specifically, seeing God working through people.

There is a girl at youth group, a troubled girl, a girl who struggles socially, a girl who is having difficulties in her home life - very loud and obnoxious; she today stated publically that youth group is the only place that she feels special, for who she is.

Praise God, and pray that he may continue to be visibly seen through the eyes of this young girl.

Stupids

God gives us wonderful people who look after us and tell us we are stupid when we are. I am really thankful for these people, I know I dwell on things - I know I analyze things to the point of ridiculousness. I know that my head must understand things for me to move on from them....

To Emma, Katie, and Iain - Thanks, I owe you all a lot more than thanks - but thanks all the same. I think I am starting to get somewhere - I am not there yet - but thanks for the slap when I needed it

- thanks for telling me I am a stupid.

ground less trodden.

Hello Blog!

It has been a while since we have spoken, but I am back.

One of the good things about not having blogged for a while is that no-one is likely to read this. The reality however, is that I really wish that I could scream and be heard...

It has been a really rough couple of months. I suffer from a fairly serious sleep condition, which has been good for the last week - but even then I am certain it is a temporary reprieve. I just cannot fall asleep. I've done this for days in a row; and yeah - least to say, it affects me in particularly not so good fashion. Most doctors are putting it down to stress, I'm not as convinced.

Bronni and I have broken up - I'm not really sure why we fell out of love. I'm not really sure what happened. Things went from fantastic to crap in a a very short period of time - and then we struggled in a never ending spiral for a while - and yeah - what happened? I don't know. I wish I did, and I wish I had of been able to fix it.

I'm just feeling crap at the moment. I'm feeling miles away from a reality. I'm far from happy Mick that most people know and at least like to some extent - I feel like I have given so much of me, that I struggle to know who Mick is anymore. What has consumed me is a hole of nothingness. A pit from which I feel very limited opportunity to escape.

My life which made sense has been rocked - by lots of illogical, and misrepresented facts which cannot be understood, but cannot be ignored. The whirring continues, as will the solice...

When were you returning Lord?